nar eputistic # 1161
last night/this morning was completely uncalled for. I crossed boundaries. Almost had to fight a good crony, & i lost a pack of newports that had atleast 16 cigs in it. I am not okay with this. Me & Hiney are closer than we’ve ever been. I just wish I didn’t always try to rape her when i’m on dope. I promised her i wouldn’t rape her tho. She believes me. & I believe me. I think tonight we’re just gonnna chill out, have some wine…no drugs, just some barely aged wine & her jacuzzi.